Fri 9 May 2008
Have you ever felt spiritually dry? (Don’t worry, this is not an observation about your life as much as a confession from mine).
I mean have you ever felt disconnected. It isn’t that you don’t love God, you just don’t feel close.
Well, that is how I have felt over the past couple of weeks. Physically I have been exhausted. Emotionally challenged (had a misunderstanding with a close friend this week). And, just not motivated to spend time with God. All of those factors have led me to a place where I have felt dry.
Well, today, after talking with a friend about how I was feeling, I decided it was time to push through it. I wasn’t going to accept it anymore and I wasn’t going to whine about it. So, I went into “change posture mode”.
Rather than sit and wonder why I was feeling disconnected, I decided to connect. Rather than complain that I felt dry, I chose to spend some time close to the living water. Rather than hide from my situation, I chose to confess.
Well, it is working. As I spent some time worshipping with some great vertical music, I began to see God in focus. Rather than isolated, I began to sense His comfort as I read His Word. And, instead of lacking energy, I began to pace and confess all that I know about Him, “My God, you are amazing. You are powerful. You are loving.” That kinda stuff.
And, you know what, it is beginning to work. Spiritual energy and motivation are returning. Heavenly perspectives are replacing my “woe is me” ones. And, I am in the beginning stages of pulling myself out of it.
I felt compelled to share this today, not because I am proud of the spiritual desert that I found myself in and not because I want you to pat me on the back because I am “pulling myself up by the bootstraps”. I am writing this because I believe some of you might be able to relate to my condition over the past couple of weeks and you need to be encouraged that it is just a season and you can dig out. Don’t give up. We all go through these things. But, God is just waiting to help us get to a good place again.
So, thanks for letting me share. And remember, His eyes are on you just waiting for an opportunity to convince you of His love.
Sean
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May 15th, 2008 at 7:19 pm
Sean, I’m not quite sure what’s up, but … I do that a lot. Feel bum, try to get closer, but it never works. So, either you’re really special, you’re nuts, or I’m invisible to the God of this universe in addition to everyone else on the planet. And if it’s just a season, it’s a pretty long one. Like, years long.
May 15th, 2008 at 7:33 pm
I know that dry moments can frustrate and can seem to last forever, but your emotions are lying to you. They will not last forever and you have not been forgotten. God is very aware of your situation. He has never left you and never will. Although you can’t feel Him, He is with you right now longing to meet all of your need.
And, by the way, I have been accused of being nuts before. That may be it. lol.
Sean
May 15th, 2008 at 8:13 pm
The ‘dry season’ is not … It’s become my life. If it weren’t for two people that are in my life right now, I probly wouldn’t be here anymore. I know God is supposedly there all the time. I grew up in church, born in the pew, the whole nine yards, so I’ve always known that he’s there, but it’s like he’s there for everyone but me. I can see him work, so I know he’s there, but he touches and works with everyone else. But, I’m used to it, I get it everywhere else too, *insert real name here* is only there in cyberspace, not in person, or in ‘godspace’ either, it seems anyway.
May 21st, 2008 at 7:32 pm
I know that you have heard it before…but I want you to hear it again. You are not alone. God never has left you and never will. You are always on His mind and even when it doesn’t feel as if He is active in your life, He is upholding you and working things behind the scenes for your benefit and your advantage.
As someone who grew up in church, I know that it can seem as if you have heard it so much…had it crammed down your throat that it doesn’t seem real…but it is.
God knows that you are struggling for strength and faith, and He will meet those needs.
I am praying for you.